Sometimes you have to look back and realise how far you have come.
4 years ago I walked out of my job, newly married with no way to pay the bills. It was a job I hated & I dreaded going to work everyday. I had never taken risks before and honestly I still feel like it was the most ballsy thing I’ve ever done but I was petrified and felt like a failure. I got a part time job to make ends meet and 4 years later I now manage that organisation and adore my job, as well as the people I work with.
3 years ago we were facing the harsh realities of IVF and the fear we would never have children. I was petrified I would never get to hold my own baby or get to experience motherhood. Now I’m writing this cuddling my two beautiful girls.
2 years ago we got hit with the stark reality thay we couldn’t get a mortgage to build our family home due to the restrictions on our land. I had always wanted to build on our family land and have my children experience the incredible childhood I was lucky to experience. We thought, screw it we’ll just start and work it out as we go. 2 years later and we are over half we there and should be in by the end of 2020!
Now we’ve been hit with Isa’s diagnosis. This post could be depressing and a “feel sorry for me” post but it isn’t. You see, although Isa’s Homocystinuria diagnosis was the scariest experience to date, I know we can face it head on. We’ve tackled some mental things over the past 4 years but none of them have beaten us yet and none of them will.
No matter what you are going through you can deal with it. You are stronger than it and this curve ball won’t last long. I firmly believe every experience makes you stronger and we are proof that if you don’t give up, you will beat it.
I can look around me tonight and I know that despite the challenges I am hugely, hugely blessed and so are you.